"Sooner or later God meets every trusting child who is following Him up the mountain and says, "Now prove that you believe this that you have told ME you believe, and that you have taught others to believe."
THEN is your OPPORTUNITY. God knows, and you know, that there was always a hope in your heart that a certain way would not be yours. "Anything but that, Lord," had been your earnest prayer.
And then, perhaps quite suddenly, you found your feet set on that way, that and no other. Do you still hold fast to your faith that He maketh your way perfect?
It does not look perfect. It looks like a road that has lost its sense of direction: a broken road, a wandering road, a strange mistake. And yet, either it is perfect, or all you have believed crumbles like a rope of sand in your hands. There is no middle choice between faith and despair. "
Gold By Moonlight pg 71 Amy Carmichael